Where Is God When I Want Him? - A reflection from A Grief Observed

I will quote C.S. Lewis from his book, A Grief Observed. “Meanwhile, where is God? This is one of the most disquieting symptoms. When you are happy, so happy that you have no sense of needing Him, so happy that you are tempted to feel His claims upon you as an interruption” The times when I have felt distant and lacking of God’s presence have not always been the worst stages of my life. This is hard to admit, since I have grown up in a Christian home, where God is everything including oxygen. My mother would probably hit me over the head, merely for thinking it. However, reality and the way a person feels when reality hits them, is never a sin. Can there be a sense of happiness away from God? When I speak of being away from God, I am referring to the conscious acts done against what we believe God disapproves of. When God comes knocking at my door, many times I have not wanted to answer. I do not want to put down everything I am doing and render myself to His will. God is a commitment and many times I’m not ready to make that leap of faith. However, once I find myself lost or in the midst of adversity I find myself running to my knight in shining armor seeking to be rescued. It is the symptom of life sickness. Once we have had our fill of life and all it has to offer, we find ourselves stuffed and sick, wanting a quick fix. There are no quick fixes, however, so why should God be one? It would almost be an injustice if God were always so close and accessible, just when we want or need him. I suppose the best way to look at it is that God is available at just the right time.